Matchpoint...

Honestly...this is the most honest time I ever had...both not expecting anything,just enjoying each other company and let time pass...

Attraction @ First Encounter...

Love at first sight it is not
Denying the attraction I cannot
Who is he to make the heart flutter so
That in smiles was all I can do
A sport bar was our setting
A match was our reason for meeting
Conversation flowed freely
Easy banter turned flirty
Meet again shall we?
A grin, a nod, I can only think of the maybe...

Guess I was mistaken...

I get it...I finally get it...I do...that's the max it is...thank you though,not matter what.

Reservation...

Tweeting is my guilty pleasure...the place that I can praise,compliment,rant,bitch,whine basically abt anything with just few selected friends knowing them and a whole lot of random online strangers who I doubt they really care what I'm yakking about. For the past one year I have played the role of a listener,keeping quiet most of the time during social outing,preferring not to comment. Basically just trying very hard to blend in and this has somehow extend to my close circle. Less contribution,less judgement,less worry...no I'm not a bitch enough to heck care what others think...unfortunately so.
Is this the sign of growing older and being more reserve? Or the pill of experience is so bitter that I try so hard to avoid swallowing it again?
Yesterday as I kneeled down and pray,I began counting my blessing...my wonderful family,my loving sis,my friends who are different yet been with me throughout,my job,my recent encounter,my faith...yes,as tears of gratitute flowed down my cheeks I'm thankful.

Happiness...

Being happy is pretty much a self decision isn't it? This trip somehow makes me realise its really time for me to settle down...settling down isn't such a bad choice really. I told this to Moo and she agreed. Ya, this year has been a year of revelation and blessing. Most importantly He made me see who I am and my surrounding.
This trip I guess I speak v little... Put myself more to listen, a little antisocial maybe I guess...but it does make me see more things...I finally get to understand my own position, I finally get to see her being happy... And that makes me realise I can be very happy too...simple can be very happy too...

Body and Me

Being 30 makes me realise that hey I really need to take care of my body...I have come to realise that I will never look great skinny...no,I don't even look good slim. I need to be fleshy to look great. My face and collar bones tend to show the most when I lose weight. Really not a pleasant sight when you realise I look so haggard just to look tad slim. Yes, I am embracing my fleshiness and to my surprise many actually commented that I look fab this way. Well, fleshy is not gonna be flabby. I am totally inspired by Scarlet Johansson and if you remember I used to drool over this Playboy bunny body...erhm,not that I have her boobs size but with the help of some chicken fillets *grin* I think I will look tad similar hehehehe... I'm gonna be nice to my body wth the below:

1) Drink at least 2L of water everyday, even on weekends
2) Eat yoghurt everyday
3) Snacks shall be nuts and fruits
4) Swim half hour everyday,I really need to focus on this. Need to sleep early,I can do it and my body will love me for it
5) Eat my soya beancurd everyday, no junk fried beehoon
6) Start my day wth 1 cup of water wth lemon juice. I totally believe in this in helping to detox my stomach
7) Use my Indo lulur every evening and moisturize my skin. Be good to it and the skin will show its glow
8) Spend specific time wth Him, I will sleep better knowing I'm close to Him

Well, I think 8 is a good number and I have 3 weeks to my 2 weeks holiday. I want to show my glowing me :D

Goodbye with a smile :)

That someone just announced he is finally attached. The photo I saw on FB, somehow a few days before I had this feeling that something is happening with him. I am happy for him, finally he is happy. Finally, he has gotten a great job and girl and his road in Indonesia is finally looking up and yes, I wish him the best. I was glad that that dark time of his, he shared it wth me. That honest fear and vulnerability, he trusted me wth them and finally he found his happiness once more.

I told him that I can no longer do random chat wth him now. I can't tease him now and out of respect, I decided to take a step back. He has taught me the most important thing that a good guy look for in a girl... Self Respect. Because of him, I make sure my action tally wth my words. Because of him, I choose to be honest and make sure my actions allow me to be honest. Because of him, I turn for the better.... all simply because he trusts me.

Thank you Mr B, your Pretzi will always pray for your happiness no matter what happen.

Boredom...what it's telling me

I have to say boredom kills.... compare to boredom, I rather be busy at work... time ever passed so slowly and I hv nothing to be occupied on.


This week was the first time ever I manage to get out of my office at 6plus... a luxury I must say, finding myself wth nothing much to occupy myself till the time to go to bed is kinda fustrating... maybe its Him telling me to spend sometime in His Word and also to get myself closer to him

Recently I have been fascinated by Taiwan artist Vann Ness Wu, his walk wth Him, his openess towards his praises on Him and somehow it really makes me see that how many of us really spend time wth Him. I told myself recently that how close you want to be wth Him depends how much you let Him into your life... do we trust Him enough to believe that He will provide the best for us and if we face difficulties, are we secure enough to stop fretting? I'm enjoying myself being wth Him right now, amazing presence and I just cant stop myself from praising Him again and again and this feeling is really something I want to keep for the rest of my life.

Having said that, I must admit that setting aside time for Him has not been my priority right now... my prayers have been short and I didnt read my bible as much I wish to. Time for a change and this free time I have these days is telling me ,'Hey, you hv no excuse now not to spend time wth Him' :D

Bye bye....

My 40cm long of 'burden'... I kept it right after my break up... in some way it was a shield for me... I thought I love it but most of the time, I never felt much attachment towards it... so ya, I snipped it off... finally and this is how I look now...

Great,ok,bleah?

Post Holiday Blues

Is there really such thing? Idp asked me before I left if I had a good time...I did,I truly did, I guess if not I would not feel so blue right now...the great crowd,the amazing warmth,the laughter...those stuff makes me realise that indeed I miss being wth friends. Going back to empty apartment doesn't really help much actually...I had bad time sleeping yesterday.